Got that old ‘tired and wired’ feeling this morning because
I woke at 1:00 a.m. and could not get back to sleep.
I am thinking that I may need to drop my dosage of Effexor.
But, first I am going to cut out doing my light therapy.
Man my brain is racing but my body is tired. Used to be that
I could go for days on only 3 hours of sleep. Now the old body lets me know
right away just how unhappy it is.
That racy brain, tired body feeling is crazy making. It must
be like the mixed moods of Bipolar Affective Disorder: manic and depressed at
the same time! Who hoo!
It was nice to walk back from the service station with the
temperature at 0 Celsius (32 F). But, man some of the sidewalks are icy.
Homeowners who don’t shovel their sidewalks should be spanked at the very
least. I had to cross the street to find an ice free sidewalk and nearly got
run over by some yahoo speeding. People in this city are in too much of a
hurry.
The challenge today will be to figure out how to stay
focused; and to actually get something done.
I’m trying the timer method: 30 minutes to write and post
this, for example. And, ignoring the email arrived signals Gmail sends. Turning
the radio off to reduce stimulation. Closing my eyes and taking a deep breath
to regain focus. Stretching my neck and upper arms every few minutes when I
notice them, which is usually when my eyes are closed.
Wow. This only took 13 minutes to write. Now to post it and then on to private reflections.
Lyle, I'm so glad you're writing this up. What a journey you're on. It's inspiring, though it probably doesn't feel that way to you, I'm guessing...
Posted by: Mark Silver | February 05, 2009 at 08:32 AM
Thanks for the encouragement Mark!
NO ... it does NOT feel inspiring. Often much closer to simply surviving.
As you well know it is hard on the person with the condition AND the spouse.
Cheers, Lyle
Posted by: Lyle T. Lachmuth - The Unsticking Coach | February 05, 2009 at 08:36 AM